The Dissidents

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The Dissidents
Meetings of The Dissidents
Volume 1, Issue 1

• We get together weekly for debates/discussion on
  many different topics. Everyone is welcome.

FEAR
Contact the group by e-mail at
thedissidents_at_juno.com for details on this
weeks meeting location and possible topics. We
have been meeting Friday nights.
No Passion so effectually robs the mind of all
its powers of acting and reasoning as fear -
Edmund Burke
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My Monsters
They are cute but do not be deceived - they are
violent, bloodthirsty creatures.

• There is a monster in my closet. No theres not.
  But there is. I dont want to open the door now
  Im not ready. Ill just lay here piss all over
  myself because Im afraid to get up. So Ill
  wait, hell go away right?
• Part of me wants to go to that closet, tear it
  open and challenge his right to be in this world.
  What if I fail? What if the shadow only laughs
  and I falter, only to be engulfed by the beast.
  Listen hear it comes again. The soft, hoarse
  snarls from behind the door, sickle claws
  scratching at the wooden frame too weak to get
  out. Not yet but it grows stronger. I tell myself
  to go and end it before it does get out, while
  its still weak.
• What if I lose? Perhaps the creature hopes to
  deceive me into believing I am the stronger and I
  go, only into the rending claws. I am terrified
  the wetness starts to creep down my inner thigh,
  my eyes cloud. Why wont the night be over? So it
  may sleep once again. The beast is excited it
  senses my fear, my helplessness. Its ragged
  breath quickens, and then scratching ceases. I
  listen. Petrified. I dont want this to be the
  night, I moan proclaiming my despair.
• Continued on page

This is what they can do to a man.
And here is a soul that got off easy.
Do not panic, it is all right Arnold has
everything under control down there in old Cal. I
urge you though to donate blood for as you can
see we are not dealing with ordinary gerbils. The
casualties will be high but in the end as Arnold
always says, They will be terminated.
The earth the horizon and the heavens inc. is not
responsible for the loss of memory, cardiac
arrests, pulmonary ruptures, miscarriages,
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What is there to be Afraid Of?
Just a -cide note

• Whos heard this before If my God is for me,
  who can be against me? You may be thinking that
  you havent well thats fine. Allow me to tell
  my view of fear. Id say the biblical view of
  fear, but I havent memorized the thing, of
  course. I will, though, briefly run through what
  the Bible says, and I believe, we should and
  should not fear.
• First, lets examine one of the phrases that is
  repeated very often throughout the entire text.
  This is, Fear the Lord your God, or something
  similar. Taken bluntly, we, according to the
  Bible, should be outright afraid of and
  intimidated by God. We ought to recognize that
  God is all-powerful and therefore could ruin our
  lives in an instant if we but displease him. Our
  God is often described as Love or a loving God,
  but he is also described as jealous, wrathful,
  and many other things. But we should take this a
  bit further. If we truly, honestly feared the
  Almighty, we would consider that each one of our
  actions, even thoughts, should be centered on
  pleasing him, lest his wrath turn on us.
• The fear of the Lord teaches a man wisdom, and
  humility comes before honor. Proverbs 1533.
• Continued on page

• In closure we would just like to notify you that
  we have just received information that giant man
  - eating gerbils are flooding towards Hong Kong.
  Expert rodent specialists have described these
  aggressive menaces as being in around 16 to 20
  inches. This hoard of mammals has decimated the
  environments that they have rolled over in there
  relentless conquest for the center of the Asian
  world. Researchers also warn that once the
  rodents wash over Hong Kong their next plan of
  action would to be fiord the Pacific Ocean by
  hijacking fishing vessels. They then deducted
  that an amphibious landing on the southern coast
  of California was certain. Arnold has already
  assembled a coalition of DNR and Marine corps
  officials.
• Their strategy for combating this assault has not
  been released to the press. However, a number of
  Marine companies were observed sun bathing and
  they were not wearing sunscreen.

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Got Hippopotomonstroses-quippedaliophobia ?
(some funny phobias)
The problem with most drugs, is that none of
these diseases are fully understood.  They say
it is an imbalance of neurotransmitters, but
adding, or taking away, may make the symptoms
worse.  The only proven consistent technique is
electric shock therapy.  Talking to the person is
probably the best way to clear things up.  Sudden
behavior changes often are signals of distress,
which could result in suicide.  Interactions
between people are a series of physical signals,
vocal signals, and pheromones, which will change
the thinking process and the cycling of
neuro-pathways.  This will start more
communication, and so on.  These interactions are
stored within the memory parts of the brain, but
also change the emotional centers, affecting the
way your body functions. All brain and
psychological disorders are simply chemical
imbalances, whether it is voluntary or not. We
simply cannot function without the right stuff to
run our bodies. All that remains a mystery is
the little stuff and the big stuff. Which
chemicals do what, and what is thinking itself as
a whole? When it comes down to it the body is
very adaptable, and can overcome anything.  It is
clear that the cortex has control over the
emotions in some cases, but rather the other way
around in others.  It depends a lot on who you
are, for this cannot be expressed in any way, but
vocal communication (talking, singing, writing). 
The brain is still very mysterious, and most of
this is still theory, but maybe someday we will
understand the way we work, and perhaps even
improve upon it.        - Ted
(thedissidents_at_juno.com)
Anablephobia- Fear of looking up Fear of peanut
butter sticking to the roof of the mouth -
Arachibutyrophobia Barophobia- Fear of
gravity Fear of colors - Chromatophobia Chronophob
ia- Fear of time Fear of objects at the right
side of the body Dextrophobia Didaskaleinophobi
a- Fear of school Fear of freedom -
Eleutherophobia Epistemophobia- Fear of
knowledge Fear of laughter - Geliophobia Geniophob
ia- Fear of chins Fear of being infested with
worms - Helmintophobia Hippopotomonstrosesquippeda
liophobia- Fear of long words Fear of sitting
down - Kathisophobia- Logophobia- Fear of
words Fear of everything - Panophobia Papyrophobia
- Fear of paper Fear of bald people -
Peladophobia Phobophobia- Fear of fear Fear of
thinking - Phronemophobia Sitophobia- Fear of
food Fear of learning - Sophophobia
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• norepinephrin.  All of these neurotransmitters
  are responsible for emotions, eating, sleeping,
  and thinking to some extent.  So if you have an
  imbalance of these neurotransmitters from some
  traumatic event, certain signals may have no
  effect.  In other words, if you are depressed,
  you may not feel hungry, you may not sleep well,
  you may be sexually inadequate, and you may have
  trouble thinking.  In addition to this, when
  there are too many or not enough of these
  neurotransmitters, the hypothalamus is affected
  for some reason, so that its metabolism
  shrinks.  This further damages the process, and
  the imbalances will be greater.  The signal is
  basically short-circuited, so that only the
  depressive things have control over your
  emotions.  This is why depression often leads to
  suicide.  One will become obsessed with the
  problem and eventually a very rash action may be
  forced into action.  Obsession is the first step
  to insanity.
• One could say that depression is derived out of
  fear. Something goes wrong and you assume it
  will never improve. What to fear is fear itself,
  for it is the cause of this misery. Dont get me
  wrong, fear on a small level will save your life,
  but as aforesaid, obsession and fear dont mix.
  You will go insane. Fear forces change along
  your neuro-pathways and it will teach you to do
  things better next time. It may also stifle your
  responses.  Manic Depression (bipolar) is
  slightly different.  In manic-depressives, there
  is a larger role with adrenaline.  Bipolar as you
  may or may not know has two effects that are
  constantly fighting each other.  At first the
  person may seem depressed, and down.  Often angry
  or confused, the person is not very nice. 
  However within a few days this person will
  suddenly cheer up, so much so that they will feel
  like they are on top of the world.  They will
  feel invincible, or in other words manic.  Manic
  depression can be just as dangerous or even worse
  than major depression.  These mood swings
  eventually lead to suicide, or hallucinations.  A
  matter of fact, it has been seen (not proven)
  that manic depression leads to schizophrenia. 
  ADD is also closely tied to Bipolar, except on
  the other end of the scale, it is nowhere near as
  severe, but could lead to bipolar.

Beautiful women- Caligynephobia. Bums or beggars-
Hobophobia. Chickens- Alektorophobia. Crucifix,
the or crosses- Staurophobia. Decisions making
decisions- Decidophobia. Doctrine, challenges to
or radical deviation from official- Heresyphobia
or Hereiophobia. Gods or religion-
Theophobia. Greek or Greek culture-
Hellophobia. Greek terms- Hellenologophobia. Harme
d by wicked persons bad men or burglars-
Scelerophobia. Heaven- Ouranophobia or
Uranophobia. Hell- Hadephobia, Stygiophobia or
Stigiophobia. Holy things- Hagiophobia. Homosexual
ity or of becoming homosexual- Homophobia. Ignored
, being- Athazagoraphobia. Jealousy-
Zelophobia. Jews- Judeophobia. Kissing-
Philemaphobia or Philematophobia. Love, sexual
love- Erotophobia. Love play- Malaxophobia or
Sarmassophobia. Love, falling or being in-
Philophobia. Men- Androphobia or Arrhenphobia or
Hominophobia. Menstruation- Menophobia. Mother-in-
law- Pentheraphobia. Myths or stories or false
statements- Mythophobia. Names or hearing a
certain name- Onomatophobia. News hearing good
news- Euphobia. Odor, personal- Bromidrosiphobia,
Bromidrophobia, Osmophobia or Osphresiophobia. Old
people- Gerontophobia. Opinions-
Allodoxaphobia. Opinions, expressing- Doxophobia.
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• Based on what is turned on in the Amygdala and
  Hippocampus, different things will happen in the
  Hypothalamus.  The Hypothalamus controls most of
  your emotions, reactions, and hormones.  The
  hypothalamus is directly responsible for
  controlling your pituitary gland (endocrine
  system).  The endocrine system is the system
  responsible for releasing hormones.  They serve
  many functions similar to neurotransmitters, but
  throughout the entire body.  They turn different
  proteins on in each different cell.  That means
  just about everything you do is controlled by
  hormones.  The hormones are controlled by the
  Pituitary, which is controlled by the
  hypothalamus, which is controlled by either the
  emotions, or the cortex.
• Pheromones can cause changes in the amount of
  neurotransmitters in the brain.  Pheromones and
  drugs fit into proteins within the brain.  They
  help out in brain function in some ways, but harm
  it in others.  The body in response will stop
  making the original chemicals which were there
  and one will become addicted to whatever that
  particular thing is.  It is the same with food
  too, although that is supposed to happen with
  food.  Drugs and pheromones will change the
  thinking process, and the neural pathways in the
  brain, usually in an undesirable way, yet once in
  the system you will be dependant upon them.
• The cortex is the most important part of the
  brain for humans.  The cortex controls speech,
  reading, writing, thinking, singing, and most of
  our other functions which are more complicated
  than most other animals are capable of.  When a
  signal goes through the brain, it will affect
  every part of the brain that is currently
  active.  Learning is the way new neural pathways
  are opened up.  The more of these neural pathways
  there are available the smarter you will probably
  be.  The more you use that part of the brain the
  better the signal will get through.  So if you
  talk a lot, you will be good at talking, if you
  eat a lot you will be good at eating, and if you
  play sports a lot you will be good at that.
• Depression (major) is a signal that goes
  through, and turns off the right parts of the
  brain so that only certain neural pathways are
  open.  Depression is linked with serotonin,
  melatonin, epinephrine (adrenaline), and

Philosophy- Philsosphobia. Phobias-
Phobophobia. Phobic prefering fearful situations-
Counterphobia. Pleasure, feeling-
Hedonophobia. Politicians- Politicophobia. Pope-
Papaphobia. Praise, receiving- doxophobia. Priests
or sacred things- Hierophobia. Prostitutes or
venereal disease- Cypridophobia, Cypriphobia,
Cyprianophobia, or Cyprinophobia. Rape-
Virginitiphobia. Religion or gods-
Theophobia. Religious ceremonies-
Teleophobia. Ridiculed, being- Catagelophobia or
Katagelophobia. Satan- Satanophobia. Self,
personal odor- Bromidrosiphobia or
Bromidrophobia. Self, that one has a vile odor-
Autodysomophobia. Semen- Spermatophobia or
Spermophobia. Sermons- Homilophobia. Sex,
opposite- Heterophobia or Sexophobia. Sexual
intercourse- Coitophobia. Sexual love or sexual
questions- Erotophobia. Sin or of having
committted an unpardonable sin- Enosiophobia or
Enissophobia. Sin- Hamartophobia. Social (fear of
being evaluated negatively in social situations)-
Social Phobia. Teenagers- Ephebiphobia. Water-
Hydrophobia. Women- Gynephobia or
Gynophobia. Words- Logophobia or Verbophobia.
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Continued from page 2 Consider this verse
(before reading my comments afterwards) I
tell you my friends, do not be afraid of those
who kill the body and after that can do no more.
But I will show you whom you should fear fear
him who, after killing the body, has power to
throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear
him. These are the words of Jesus Christ, found
in Luke, verses 124-5. Who is Jesus referring
to? Most would think Satan, Lucifer, Beelzebub,
the devil (all are names for the fallen angel,
the ruler of hell) because hell is mentioned. But
I am telling you that Jesus means God the Father.
God is all-powerful. One must not even fear the
tempter, who controls the hearts of so many men.
To be a Christian, you must fear God and God
alone.   The main reason for fearing God alone
was stated in the first line of this editorial.
If the Almighty being is on my side - because I
am on his side - what have I to fear? The
psalmist summed up this point pretty well.
Reflect on the following The Lord is my light
and my salvation whom shall I fear? The Lord is
the stronghold of my life- of whom shall I be
afraid? When evil men against me to devour my
flesh, When my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall. Though an army
besiege me, My heart will not fear Though war
break out against me, Even then I will be
confident. Psalm 271-3

• Warning This is complex scientific information
  and very boring.
• I once researched the human brain and the way in
  which it functions.  Messages are relayed from
  the senses into the central nervous system and
  the brain.  They are both electrical and chemical
  messages. Well, the electrical part is chemical
  too since it is just electrolytes, or ions in the
  neuron that transmit the electricity.  It is
  electrical within each neuron, but when it
  reaches the end of the single cell, it is stuck. 
  It cannot go any further.  This gap between
  neurons is called the synapse.  So in order for
  the message to get through to the brain, proteins
  are needed.  These chemical messengers are also
  called neurotransmitters.      Now these signals
  go first to the thalamus where they are relayed
  to the appropriate parts of the brain.  The brain
  itself is basically a series of circuits.  These
  circuits are created whenever we learn something,
  and destroyed without practice or remembrance. 
  So whenever one thinks, it is simply a cycling of
  electrical and chemical signals in the brain. 
  Each chemical or electrical signal can not only
  cycle throughout every part of the brain, but
  also turn on or off different emotions,
  functions, and responses in each part.  When a
  traumatic stimulus occurs to a person (or
  animal), a signal is sent to the brain.  It goes
  first to the thalamus where it is relayed, but
  then it will travel to the emotional center of
  the brain where the Amygdala, Hippocampus,
  Hypothalamus, and endocrine system are centered. 
  The Amygdala and Hippocampus are where emotions
  are.  As the signals go through they may turn on
  or off this or that in the hippocampus and also
  in the Amygdala. Fear is located primarily in
  the Amygdala.  Think of it this way.  You have a
  circle, which is your message, and then in the
  various proteins in each neuron within the brain
  you have triangles, squares, and circles.  So
  this circle goes through and activates the circle
  enzymes.  Okay, but it can also fit into the
  square, so it will turn it on too.  It cant fit
  into the triangle so it is left alone.

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• In the words of Solomon of Proverbs
• Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but
  whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.
  Proverbs 2925.
•  
• Isaiah, a prophet of God, said something similar.
  Consider
• Hear me, you who know what is right, you people
  who have my law in your hearts Do not fear the
  reproach of men or be terrified by their insults.
  For the moth will eat them up like a garment the
  worm will devour them like wool. But my
  righteousness will last forever, my salvation
  through all generations. Isaiah 517-8.
• Paraphrased by my understanding Christians, true
  Christians dont fear reproach or insult of
  others. They will not receive everlasting life,
  but death no better than old clothes decaying
  and ceasing to exist. God and his covenants with
  us will last forever.
•  
• One more passage bear with me, those of you who
  do not accept the truth of the Bible.
• God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God,
  and God in him. In this way, love is made
  complete among us so that we will have confidence
  on the day of judgment, because in this world we
  are like him. There is no fear in love. But
  perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to
  do with punishment. The one who fears is not made
  perfect in love. 1 John 416b-18.
• In other words, the one who loves God and trusts
  him will have complete trust and no fear on the
  day of his earthly death (day of judgment).
•  
• Now, for anyone reading who is reading who is
  maybe Jew, Muslim, Buddhist, Hindu, or atheist,
  let me ask you a question. What is the opposite
  of fear? Some would say confidence, some

This is your brain, and this is your brain
on fear
Something's wrong with his medulla oblongata.
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recklessness, others ignorance. I would say that
the opposite of fear is assurance and hope
together. What hope do you have? Most of you
believe that to be saved from death or torment
your must follow a set of guidelines perfectly.
Whether its the Torah, Koran, or whatever you
must be perfect to have any hope. Atheists, you
apparently think existence ends with ones death
on earth so life is short for you.   What if
all you had to do to live for eternity in
complete happiness was to accept that you arent
perfect, but there once was a perfect man just
one. Also, that that one perfect man who deserved
Gods absolute favor, went through the most
agonizing of deaths so that God would forgive
Mans sins your shortcomings and mistakes. I
offer this and an assurance of what awaits you at
death to you for the mere price of your belief in
Jesus Christ as Savior of the world and your
promise to fear God.   -Jereme Proudman (comments
or questions?, e-mail me at thedissidents_at_juno.co
m)
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• Continued from page1
• The scrape of clawed footsteps on the floor
  followed by an impact of the beasts weight on my
  door silences me. For a second my eyes lay fixed
  upon the door, my bowels release, for a moment
  the center of the door bows out towards me,
  fibers straining. It is ready to spill its
  contents into my room to feed on my flesh, my now
  soiled flesh. The force from this blow is such
  that as the door contracts, the dust from inside
  the vault shoots the dust from the seams of the
  door. Oh and now I can smell it! The fiend the
  smell of decay, of waste, Its been in there a
  long time a hissing voice in my head tells me,
  and its hungry, it needs to feed, it feeds on
  flesh, flesh that is marinated with fear. Its
  going to get you, you poor sonavab STOP
  IT!! I scream pitifully, I receive no response
  but the new rapid, sharp intakes of breath from
  the beast that desires to consume me. Its
  laughing at me. The demon knows Im his. It knows
  the stench of fear, it lives off of it, and it
  will not be easily deterred.
• As the laughter dies away, I lay in bed numb,
  panicked. Explanations, reasons excuses dart
  through my mind as to why I wont face it. I
  dont want to die its not my time yet God. I
  call to the devil in his Gods name, to pull back
  his minion, but my demands are weak, I cant
  conceive of god in this dark place. The void
  consumes me, cuts me off from the Almightys aid.
  What if God wants me to die, hes punishing me,
  but why? What the hell did I do? I dont deserve
  to lie in my own sh while some kind of demon
  awaits the taste of my flesh. DT WHY WONT
  YOU DO SOMETHING MOTHER FER. I wait my breath
  fast and ragged, waiting for deliverance. I
  receive only silence, broken at intervals by
  activity in the closet, Panic starts climbing up
  my spine, a flame is ignited in my gut. My head
  is blurring mixing things up I start to whine and
  berate. COME ON YOU ARROGANT BASTARD, YOU SIT ON
  YOUR HIGH FING THRONE AND WONT EVEN SHIFT AN
  A CHEEK TO HELP ME! HELLO MOTHER FER, WHERE
  THE HELL ARE YOU MAN!!? AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH? OH
  I GET IT YOU CLOWN IM EXPENDEBLE, THATS IT. I
  trail off into faint whimpers as the sound of
  gnashing teeth heightens.

The impact is tremendous, for a moment we form a
line in midair, merge become one, feet trading
places with the torsos intertwined in a struggle
for rule. We hit the floor both stunned. Veins
still coursing with rage I hurl my body onto the
fiend and grip each outer head with both my hands
to cut off life from them. Sinking my teeth into
the middle neck I hold the beast in a death grip.
The demon shrieks and writhes sinking its needle
claws into my sides attempting to pry me off. It
tastes vile, the skin of the beast on my lips
slimy, slick, and viscous. Its flesh in my
mouth, sour, like spoiled milk, useless and
repressing. The outer heads have ceased to
struggle only the middle remains. My teeth are
not long enough to find its life. Suddenly I
feel something curl about my neck and tighten,
suffocating me. I refuse to let go though Im
taking this b with me. Black dots appear in
my vision everything starts to blur. Its tail is
doing its work I have lost, but I might as well
hold on. In a last surge of strength the beast
hurls me from its body, there is a rip of flesh,
and as I hit the wall and sink down, I realize as
my vision clears, that dangling from my slack
mouth hangs a windpipe or a large vein of sorts.
Whatever it was the creature definitely needs it
for it lies twitching before me, blood welding up
from the heads mouth. I spit the foul entrails
out. A wave of relief washes over me, it is
over. I turn around to look out into my room from
the door, as I gaze, a morning ray of sunlight
creeps across my floor.   Written, produced,
conceived, and lived by Vincent Nowaczewski
(thedissidents_at_juno.com)
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• pull back in a snarl. It dares to come to my
  room, into my life, it comes to give me pain,
  suffering and death but its got another thing
  coming. I stride over and grip the knob and
  pause, for the beast sounds different, slightly
  surprised, and taken aback. It can sense my
  anger, my hatred, and my determination to kill
  it. This was not what it had bargained for it
  didnt want a fight. It wanted a hapless victim
  who lie still like a good food item and let it
  pick it apart. I hate the cowardly thing even
  more, a growl rose in my throat, I will crush it
  my hand wrenches the door open
• I behold it at last. Stepping out of the shadows
  it advances on my figure. It is bipedal with a
  tail that stretches back into the shadows,
  lashing back and forth defensively like a snake.
  It stands, its head brushing the ceiling with its
  two muscular arms armed with curved deadly claws.
  Its body then terminates with three identical
  heads resembling that of lampreys, with three
  teeth in each maw in a triangle like arrangement.
  
• The heads rears forward spraying their challenge
  on to me a strange euphoria comes over me, I not
  afraid I just want to kill it, to reawaken
  myself with the exertion towards its
  annihilation. To end its existence in my life, I
  need a simpler life anyway and this is a d
  good place to start canceling sh out. I bared
  my teeth I feel the blood rushing to my biceps,
  to my legs warming me, empowering me. It will die
  tonight. I widened my stance lifting arms and
  striking my thighs feeling my power, exhaling my
  fury, snarling like an animal. A very pissed off
  and slightly deranged animal. The monster shifted
  its left leg behind itself leaning back so to be
  prepared to run or meet the onslaught, although
  where would he run he is in a fing closet.
• I dart toward the snarling beast and he rushes
  forward as well, seeing no alternative but to
  stand and fight. We meet in the air, his claws
  digging into my shoulders spilling blood and my
  hands clenching one of the necks and his shoulder.

I have to stop it my mind cant take it much
longer. My mind is already broken, God isnt
here, he wont help, and I am utterly alone in
this. Through a great effort I rise from my fifth
that, despite the smell makes me feel secure. The
hard wood floor is cold to my bare feet as I
swing down to the ground my legs shake
uncontrollably. God, the futility, the desertion,
my knees give way the muscles refuse to respond.
I will receive no help, brought to one knee back
against the bed I raise my head. Claws appear in
the gap between the door and the floor trying to
pry their owner out, to fall upon his prey so he
can wield them to drain the life from my body.
You wont taste me God dt and I make to
march for the door, to challenge it, to end it
but I instead lurch forward on to my stomach. I
cant do it, fear, doubt, and helplessness have
me in a vice grip. They control my mind, not I,
they will see me slaughtered, F them, it is
not my time, I wont let them take this from me,
this is my life, my room and my fing closet
that that thing is shing in. Its time for all
this to go, its time for me to break out of this
prison, the intangibles dont have bars thick or
strong enough to contain me. I will shatter them
I will strike them down as a father would an
impudent child. I will break them as the bear
breaks the elk, and will cast them down to lie in
their waste as they have done to me but they will
not rise like I will. I regain feelings of my
legs as I finish these thoughts. I feel solid,
real, in control, sure. It spreads throughout my
body and into my heart. I look toward the, it
infuriates me, my lips
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